These next few weeks are going to be the best of the summer.

The uncertainty is exhilerating. The freedom liberating.

This is what I've been waiting for.

Why didn't I do it sooner?

I'll get you.  ¶ 5:06 AM

  They say you change so much in your 20's. I don't disagree.

I want to be free. Travel the world. Go to school in a different province. Meet new friends, date new boys. Free myself from my past.

This relationship is past it's best before date. Stale. Uncomfortable. Unfun.

Yet.. restraining. Impossible to dislodge from. Broken in. Familiar. Annoying. Frustrating. Aggrevating. Bipolar.

I dreamt about him the other night. That we were laughing and carrying on. Happy. So I called him the next day, and the sound of his voice made me happy. I think it made him happy to talk to me, too.

I'm changing.

I graduate this year. I'm educated now, with blossoming opportunities and buckets of ambition. But he.. he's not. He's unmotivated. Uncaptivated. Not interested. He plays video games, computer games, watches TV. He's not active and healthy like he once was. I find that unattractive. He's doesn't call, e-mail or message. What is the point?

I am at my peak. I am in the best shape of my life. I look and feel great. I have close core friends and wonderful peripheral friends. I am content.


I am becoming who I've always wanted to be.  ¶ 11:51 AM